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I was supposed to see Paul in the evening, but he phoned just beforehand and said he had a cold and couldn’t see me. So I felt very disappointed, and then I thought ‘Well, I’ll take him some grapes and stuff to cheer him up.’

So I bought a whole picnic of lovely cold food and books and — oh, it makes me bitter when I remember. Anyway, I rang the bell and he came to the door in just trousers and he looked rather annoyed at first, then he smiled in a rather sinister way and said, “Ah, Ameleia, just what we wanted, some company.”

And then he led me through to the bedroom and - there was another girl. All undressed and she had a horrible plastic dildo-thing in her hand. I sort of choked and rushed back but Paul caught me and Held me there, turned me around and kissed me, and was very gentle and said, “No, don’t mind her, come back,” And then he said, “Anne, this is your new playmate,” and this horrible dykey girl came over to me and put her arms around me as well, while Paul sort of held me so I couldn’t go.